What's wrong with not wanting any S C R U B S .?

Ok...so at first im like... "omg somebody else with another reality show" but when I looked at the trailer it actually looked okay. Floyd is on there...and It sort of reminds me of myself before I met my boyriend. My standards were sooo high I coldnt settle for less than perfect...BUT MY BOYFRIEND EATS PORK. Lol.

Why Not To Room With a Bully-SMH

Mannnn...I dont even have words for this here. Smh. I would have walked out too. Guess why he beat him up....FOR SOME OREOS!!!

House and Ellen

Hugh is soooo cool. He's from England.

Having a Life?...NOPE.

Ughhhhhhh I wake up this morning...feeling empty (womp womp). My car is totaled (FUCK!) and spring break starts this weekend. I mean, of course, I have my family. But my sibs go to school next week, and my parents run errands. Yes, it's cool to tag along....but whenever I am alone with my parents sometime during that day I'm going to get a lecture (ughhh). I'd rater stay home.

Boyfriend works during the week...and of couse, it's nott like I can see him when I want because I dont have the transportation to get to him. (grrrr) But beyond that...friends? Not likely. The few I have are either away at school, or too busy to consider a date or a bit of time for me. Sometimes theres just always an excuse. What am I to do?

I'm outgoing, to a certain extent..(yeah right)...ookay i'm shy to another extent....but even so...I cant just get new friends ya know? I can't just go find someone to hang out with. I can't trust most people...they always end up playing or crossing at some point...i'd just rather not try tht route anymore. I mean, don't get me wrong....if someone comes along...i'd give them a chance....but that chance is slim to none.

I suppose I am to go home, sit in my brothers' room (because it's not like I have my own) watch t.v... do a bit of studying... and continue on to being a loner. It just sucks because my boyfriend does his thing....goes out or whatever alone or with his friends...but for some odd reason the only time I hang out is with him. It gets irritating....very irritating. But hey....those are just adjustments I need to make eyyyy?

CNA-Certification Class

As you may know, I am an aspiring Nursing student. Certified Registered Nurse Anesthesis...that is. I am a freshman so I have a job at the school library and ran into a CRNA... We chopped it up and I got her information. She said I can come and Shadow her. SWEET. That was super exciting. Not only did that happen, but the day before Valentines day, I met my boyfriend's Uncle, who happens to work at the hospital right u the street (Sinai-Where my grandad died RIP grandad!!) and he told me to give him a call, he'll be able to get me a position up there doing something.

So I had these connections but only to either volunteer and work for free or get a minimum wage job as a CO-Op or something. Therefore, I came to the conclusion that I'll take a certification class (which happens to be 600 bucks!!) to be a Certified Nursing Assistant. CNA's make in btw 10 and 15 bucks, which is cool to keep my bills paid when I get an apartment so my parents won't have to worry about me and I can get some experience out of the way.

Hopefully I can get the cash by the summertime to take this 2 week class and the state test and become a CNA. Me, being 19 years old... that's cool. And it would be my highest paying job yet lol.

Flower Power

Distorted floral dress. FLY. Super cute for someone who has the bod to wear it. Perfect for anysemi-formal occasion.

Flral Pumps from Forever 21. You could wear these with just about ANYTHING. More than likely a pink dress would do it. Too bad they dont have these in my size....=[

Idk about you, but to me floral printed apparel is extremely fashion forward. From pumps, to sundresses...I'll wear almost anything with floral designs. All of these flowers make the winter go away!

Family,College,Boyfriend...etc

Sorry I've been missing. I've been dealing with the things that matter to me the most. (as you can see in the title) So we can start off with school...

I have been super busy with studying because this week I had an exam, 2 papers due, and a Chemistry quiz. Lots of studying and work and studying and work and studying...well...you get the picture.

My boyfriend and I have been having problems lately; all of which have been resolved, so I decided to spend my weekend with him.

And last but not least, my family. Today my daddy was in a car accident. I already knew he was okay so I didnt think the worse, but one half of me felt guilty. The car is ruined and of course they cannot pay to get it fixed....they're paying for me to go to college. Its saddening because my family would do anything for my education. They'd even put there house up for it... It reminded me today that I need to get more serious about this because my family is sacrificing alot...and if I dont get it together, not only do my parents have to suffer, but my siblings have to as well. Not only am I pursuing this career for myself, but for my family because I need to repay them for all they have done for me.

That's all for now. I'm getting a head start on studying and writing yet another paper for Psychology. Until Next time...farewell.

Love me better...

You know how people use the word "My Heart goes out to you," when they feel bad for you? how about when I feel bad for myself? Is it okay for me to say "My Heart goes out to me?"



When you're in a relationship and the trust goes out the window what are you to do? Do you allow the relationship to go out the window as well? Do you keep the relationship but lose respect for it; and start lying yourself? I feel bad for myself because there has been many girls who have been cheated on, lied to, or used and keep their boyfriends... and I call then stupid and naive. However, whenever it happens to me... I was just always quick to move on...well..at least quicker than anyone else. But when I got with him, my current boyfriend, things changed. He wasn't like the last one ;nor the one before him. it is by far the most mature relationship i've ever been in. Well at least I thought so until two days ago...



You think someone is HONEST with you 100%....and when or if you find out otherwise....trust is eliminated, respect declines, and friendship looses value. If you decide to keep the relationship, it's basically like you're starting over. But what do you do if you think you've came too far to start over now? Our trust system was ruined. Screwed.



I feel bad formyself because I talked down on those girls... and now i'm in that situation. Thought he was my most loyal soldier. Thought wrong. Thought we'd last forever with no secrets. Thought wrong. now i'm inbtw a rock and a hard place.....don't really know how to get out. If I stay... im contradicting the advise I gave those girls.... that "If he loves you and respects you like he says...he wouldnt have done that." But now that i'm in the situation...it's hard to take my own advice.



"I love him, though." That's what she said. And damn-it; I say it too. I do love him. And when I told him it was forever...I meant it. Yes, he lied to me. and yes, everyone makes mistakes. Just hopefully that keeping this relationship...isn't me making a mistake. Hopefully there will be no more secrets revealed. Hopefully there will be no more misleading stories.....and such.



I think maybe if you play by my rules....we have potential to be like it was a few days ago. No Lies...No secrets...no girls....nothing but Me and You.

How to Make It In America-Featuring Cudi

So there's this new HBO tv series featuring Cudi premiering Valentines day. Seeing as how I am a Cudi fan; I plan to tune in.

" It's about two guys in their twenties trying to make it as entrepeneurs in the fashion world in New York. But what gets me about it is that there isn't a false note anywhere in the show. It cooks along as the perfect of the moment show about the difficulties and disappointments of the American dream -- even hinting at the darkness underneath, that behind that facade of you can make it with hard work and grit lies worlds and clubs and secret handshakes that stack the deck against you. It's sincere but not naive, unsentimental but not cynical."

I highly doubt that Cudi will be one of the Stars...But if he is...SWEET.

Vans Syndicate Spring 2010 Andy Kessler Pack

So Vans syndicate as a colabo with Andy Kessler. "The pack consists of the Old Skool “S” and the Sk8 Hi “S”, both featuring premium black leather uppers, perforated leather accents, white logo stripes and soles, as well as acqua laces in contrast to the otherwise very clean shoe. An Andy Kessler logo tag is placed on the inner sole. Most interesting, Vans Syndicate used Outlast technology materials on the pack, making sure to keep your foot temperature in balance, as well as providing ventilation."

--Pretty Dope. They have yet to put a price tag on it but i'd definitely buy. The Aqua laces almost make the shoe. But the leather makes it better as well. Can't wait to see these..

Shake My Head to the Law

So i'm bored at work today, and I come across this video of a 16 year old girl (who now happens to be 31) so was sentenced to LIFE in prison with NO parole. That lawfully means that she cannot appeal her case nor get out on good behavior. Wtf man? I'm thinkin "okay...she killed someone. She can go to jail." But come'on. Once you find out WHY she killed someone...yyou'd think she would get a little leniency. Smh. She was 16 years old...missed out on school, college experience dating, and any other important aspects of adolescence.

Getting on my blog Shit

Soo uhhh yeah. Im new to this. I needed to find something outside of facebook to neglect my school work so I came to this. My boyfriend blogs all the time so I figured it'll be cool.

Okay so my boyfriend and I are big on apparel and shoes. He is dying for the Nike King Griffey's but I just will not let him get them! These shoes suck to me but I maybe they'll look nice on him? Idk mann...