Love me better...

You know how people use the word "My Heart goes out to you," when they feel bad for you? how about when I feel bad for myself? Is it okay for me to say "My Heart goes out to me?"



When you're in a relationship and the trust goes out the window what are you to do? Do you allow the relationship to go out the window as well? Do you keep the relationship but lose respect for it; and start lying yourself? I feel bad for myself because there has been many girls who have been cheated on, lied to, or used and keep their boyfriends... and I call then stupid and naive. However, whenever it happens to me... I was just always quick to move on...well..at least quicker than anyone else. But when I got with him, my current boyfriend, things changed. He wasn't like the last one ;nor the one before him. it is by far the most mature relationship i've ever been in. Well at least I thought so until two days ago...



You think someone is HONEST with you 100%....and when or if you find out otherwise....trust is eliminated, respect declines, and friendship looses value. If you decide to keep the relationship, it's basically like you're starting over. But what do you do if you think you've came too far to start over now? Our trust system was ruined. Screwed.



I feel bad formyself because I talked down on those girls... and now i'm in that situation. Thought he was my most loyal soldier. Thought wrong. Thought we'd last forever with no secrets. Thought wrong. now i'm inbtw a rock and a hard place.....don't really know how to get out. If I stay... im contradicting the advise I gave those girls.... that "If he loves you and respects you like he says...he wouldnt have done that." But now that i'm in the situation...it's hard to take my own advice.



"I love him, though." That's what she said. And damn-it; I say it too. I do love him. And when I told him it was forever...I meant it. Yes, he lied to me. and yes, everyone makes mistakes. Just hopefully that keeping this relationship...isn't me making a mistake. Hopefully there will be no more secrets revealed. Hopefully there will be no more misleading stories.....and such.



I think maybe if you play by my rules....we have potential to be like it was a few days ago. No Lies...No secrets...no girls....nothing but Me and You.