Love me better...

You know how people use the word "My Heart goes out to you," when they feel bad for you? how about when I feel bad for myself? Is it okay for me to say "My Heart goes out to me?"



When you're in a relationship and the trust goes out the window what are you to do? Do you allow the relationship to go out the window as well? Do you keep the relationship but lose respect for it; and start lying yourself? I feel bad for myself because there has been many girls who have been cheated on, lied to, or used and keep their boyfriends... and I call then stupid and naive. However, whenever it happens to me... I was just always quick to move on...well..at least quicker than anyone else. But when I got with him, my current boyfriend, things changed. He wasn't like the last one ;nor the one before him. it is by far the most mature relationship i've ever been in. Well at least I thought so until two days ago...



You think someone is HONEST with you 100%....and when or if you find out otherwise....trust is eliminated, respect declines, and friendship looses value. If you decide to keep the relationship, it's basically like you're starting over. But what do you do if you think you've came too far to start over now? Our trust system was ruined. Screwed.



I feel bad formyself because I talked down on those girls... and now i'm in that situation. Thought he was my most loyal soldier. Thought wrong. Thought we'd last forever with no secrets. Thought wrong. now i'm inbtw a rock and a hard place.....don't really know how to get out. If I stay... im contradicting the advise I gave those girls.... that "If he loves you and respects you like he says...he wouldnt have done that." But now that i'm in the situation...it's hard to take my own advice.



"I love him, though." That's what she said. And damn-it; I say it too. I do love him. And when I told him it was forever...I meant it. Yes, he lied to me. and yes, everyone makes mistakes. Just hopefully that keeping this relationship...isn't me making a mistake. Hopefully there will be no more secrets revealed. Hopefully there will be no more misleading stories.....and such.



I think maybe if you play by my rules....we have potential to be like it was a few days ago. No Lies...No secrets...no girls....nothing but Me and You.

How to Make It In America-Featuring Cudi

So there's this new HBO tv series featuring Cudi premiering Valentines day. Seeing as how I am a Cudi fan; I plan to tune in.

" It's about two guys in their twenties trying to make it as entrepeneurs in the fashion world in New York. But what gets me about it is that there isn't a false note anywhere in the show. It cooks along as the perfect of the moment show about the difficulties and disappointments of the American dream -- even hinting at the darkness underneath, that behind that facade of you can make it with hard work and grit lies worlds and clubs and secret handshakes that stack the deck against you. It's sincere but not naive, unsentimental but not cynical."

I highly doubt that Cudi will be one of the Stars...But if he is...SWEET.

Vans Syndicate Spring 2010 Andy Kessler Pack

So Vans syndicate as a colabo with Andy Kessler. "The pack consists of the Old Skool “S” and the Sk8 Hi “S”, both featuring premium black leather uppers, perforated leather accents, white logo stripes and soles, as well as acqua laces in contrast to the otherwise very clean shoe. An Andy Kessler logo tag is placed on the inner sole. Most interesting, Vans Syndicate used Outlast technology materials on the pack, making sure to keep your foot temperature in balance, as well as providing ventilation."

--Pretty Dope. They have yet to put a price tag on it but i'd definitely buy. The Aqua laces almost make the shoe. But the leather makes it better as well. Can't wait to see these..

Shake My Head to the Law

So i'm bored at work today, and I come across this video of a 16 year old girl (who now happens to be 31) so was sentenced to LIFE in prison with NO parole. That lawfully means that she cannot appeal her case nor get out on good behavior. Wtf man? I'm thinkin "okay...she killed someone. She can go to jail." But come'on. Once you find out WHY she killed someone...yyou'd think she would get a little leniency. Smh. She was 16 years old...missed out on school, college experience dating, and any other important aspects of adolescence.

Getting on my blog Shit

Soo uhhh yeah. Im new to this. I needed to find something outside of facebook to neglect my school work so I came to this. My boyfriend blogs all the time so I figured it'll be cool.

Okay so my boyfriend and I are big on apparel and shoes. He is dying for the Nike King Griffey's but I just will not let him get them! These shoes suck to me but I maybe they'll look nice on him? Idk mann...